sometimes i feel that the whole world is against me. I don't really want them to I just... to fit in sometimes. I never can be able to do whatever, say whatever. All my feelings always have to be hidden. No one ever understands how I feel. What about a moment when my voice is actually heard. I have some friends but somehow something i don't know i did always make them not- not as the friend i wish for. I don't mean to do it on purpose its just my way of living. Why no one ever helps me, i don't know. I really don't want to hurt anyone. People always can hurt me, hate me. But when has anyone ever understood me. I don't ever hate people. And even when i hate someone, one of my friends are always the ones which make me hate that person. I never can have a personal opinion. It's always someone else. Everyone in the world - even my parents - don't know how i feel. I just can't express everything I want to and expect everyone to listen and not feel pissed, bored or tired. Wherever I am, virtual world, or non - virtual world being myself have always seemed to be a dream, an ambition that somehow could not exist.  Life goes on, they say. I can't say their lying but the pace they go on in is killing me. Each second being more monotonous than the other...

hope you liked the beginning of it [: like everything else still UC. to be continued. hahaha